Ten Things I’m Proud Of This Year

I hope you are well, it’s been a while since I’ve written on here- life has been pretty hectic over the last few weeks. At the start of the month I faced assignment after assignment whilst trying to prepare for Christmas which has flown by. I can’t believe how quick it has gone and we will soon be welcoming a new year. 

But as this year is starting to wind down and before I start back at uni, I thought I’d take some time to reflect on the past year. I find it easy to find flaws and mistakes but not so easy to recognise my achievements. And I think it’s important to give ourselves credit for all the amazing things we have done. So here are 10 things I am proud of this year: 

  1. Setting up the amazing people project. There is nothing quite like receiving something handmade in the post which is one of the reasons why I have loved setting up this project. And hearing that I have made someone smile or made their day a little brighter, makes me feel like I’m doing something to help, even in a little way. I know I’ve lapsed recently but I will definitely be back writing cards at the start on the new year. 
  2. Continuing to write. I never stick at much for long, I think that’s the indecisiveness in me, but I’ve stuck at this, not always consistently but I’m still here. I still write poetry and have managed to keep this little place running which I’m proud of.
  3. Sticking at uni. I find it difficult to look to the future without thinking I’m not good enough to follow a specific path, it’s probably why I constantly change my mind, but I’ve kept going with this. I love the course and am proud of myself for working through each challenge I’ve faced, there have been many, and I will continue to see this all the way through. 
  4. Daring to dream. For the first time in ages I’ve been able to look forward and dream about the future. Some people may say they are unrealistic but you never know unless you try and I’m definitely going to try and reach them. 
  5. Going on holiday with my best friend. Anxiety told me that I shouldn’t go, that something awful could happen but I didn’t listen. And you won’t be surprised to hear that anxiety was wrong, I thoroughly enjoyed my time away and loved spending time with my best friend away from the hustle and bustle of everyday life. 
  6. Reconnecting with old friends. I always find this difficult. I worry that I have nothing new or interesting to report. That after all this time they will have moved on to bigger and better things, while I’m still stuck in the school days. But it’s not true, I have moved forward, it’s just not always easy to see it in ourselves. And it’s been lovely catching up and finding out what is going on with them. 
  7. Filling a shoe box at Christmas. I haven’t done one since I was at primary school and honestly I don’t know why I haven’t done one sooner. I loved going out and buying little gifts, even though it was a nightmare trying to fit it all in. But the thought of making someone smile on Christmas morning filled me with so much warmth. I love nothing more than helping people and making them smile and I’d like to think the little box I filled made a small difference. This is something I will do every year. 
  8. Always making time for my family. Uni work takes up the majority of my time, especially around assignment time, but I always try to make time to spend with my family. I visit my grandparents every Saturday and try to spend lots of time with my parents and sisters. Each one inspires me and I appreciate them so much. I could listen to my grandparents stories for hours. I think it’s so important to make the most of the special people you have in your life, treasure them and never let them go. And that’s exactly what I try to do. 
  9. Gradually starting to feel at home in my skin. There was a time I would never leave the house without foundation on or would only wear clothes that allowed me to blend in to the background or pick apart my own reflection. There still are days like that. But recently there have been a few days where I’ve felt comfortable with myself. I have left the house with minimal make up on and wore clothes that I want to wear. And I hope one day in the future these days become a permanent feature and I can become friends with the girl who greets me in the mirror. 
  10. Not giving up. Sometimes it’s hard but every day is a day we have survived. We will find our way in the end. 

Now life is starting to quieten down, I hope to go back to posting once a week. I’ve really missed my time away from this little space, but there’s no shame in having to prioritise from time to time. 

I can’t wait to get back in to writing properly and see where this place takes us in the new year. But before we say goodbye to 2018, I’d love to hear what you are proud of this year. 

Until next time

Karlena 

xx

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