Age Is Just A Number
I always thought adulthood would feel different.
I thought it meant independence, the freedom to do what I want, be who I want. I thought it meant having your life together.
When you’re in school, you have all these plans about what the future holds. Getting a car and having the freedom to drive to to all these amazing places. Going to university and living with your friends. Being an adult seems so exciting and you wish the days away, willing it to come sooner.
But being an actual adult always felt so far away.
When you reach a certain age, people expect certain things of you. You have to make choice that will affect your life for years to come. And there’s no manual to tell you if your doing it right or wrong. It’s just expected that you will do the right thing. But what does that even mean? Am I meant to have my dream job? A place of my own? A husband or child waiting for me at home?
I never thought at the age of almost 23 that I would be living at home with my parents, trying to start my life over. But does that make me failure?
I’d like to think not.
Everyone’s story is different. I fell all the way down to rock bottom. I didn’t think there was anyway up. But I didn’t give up. I kept fighting, I still keep fighting. Some days aren’t easy, in fact they are suffocating. But I get through them and so do you. Everyday you get up and keep going, regardless of the difficulties you face. Give yourself some credit for that, because that’s not easy.
I may not be where I planned to be or where people expect me to be. But does that really matter? I’m studying a degree I love, which has nothing to do with what I studied at school. I set up my blog and the amazing people project. I have dreams and aspirations.
I’m starting to learn that life is not about age. People move at different paces. You don’t have to reach your goals by a certain age or give up on them because it’s too late. It’s never too late to follow your heart. Age is just a number. It has no reflection on what you can or ‘should’ do.
You are your own author, so write a story that you want to be a part of. Something you are proud of, not anyone else, but you. The people who matter are the ones who will stand by your side, hold you when you feel unsteady and celebrate your successes.
You are enough just the way you are, you always have been and always will be. Age is just a number, the stepping stones from one day to the next.
What are you going to chase?
Until next time