Endings and New Beginnings
The sun rises and falls
Dusk becomes dawn
Friends fade away
New ones made along the way
Life is full of endings
But also new beginnings
Nothing truly ends
For it lives on in our hearts
Be your own light
A brighter place awaits on the horizon
When I was a child, I was inseparable from my best friend. We spent every minute together, sharing secrets, climbing trees, doing everything best friends do. She was my first true friend and at the time I never imagined that we would one day be strangers. I understand now that people grow apart and move on but for 11 year old me, it had never crossed my mind.
Change is a difficult concept, something that I have always struggled with. I tend to live my life through routines, structure and familiarity, which isn’t always the right thing to do. Anything ‘different’ or ‘new’ is quite a daunting prospect for me. Its human nature to be drawn to what is comfortable, like a moth drawn to light. But change is a part of life, and as much as I try to avoid it I, know this isn’t possible if we want to get anywhere in this life. Our souls are tiny, baby bird fledging the nest, we have to be brave enough to take flight.
This past year has been made of many difficult endings. I left university in October, something I believe I needed to do to save myself, but I didn’t just leave university. I left behind my friends, my independence and my future hopes and dreams. It has taken a long time to come to terms with the decisions I made and to try to move forward. Maybe I’m scared about whether I’ve made the right decision (or making the same mistake again)? Or what lies ahead in the future? Questions I’ve been asking myself for quite a while.
At times the smallest of steps have been challenging but the older I get the more I realise that everything comes to an end. Sometimes things end before we even realise it, sometimes it can be long and painful. But I’m gradually understanding that endings don’t have to be ‘the end’. They can be the start of something beautiful. When a caterpillar undergoes metamorphosis it’s not the end of its life, it’s quite the opposite. The caterpillar’s transformation gives it a new life, one full of adventures and new opportunities.
I left University. At the time it was the right decision for me. I can’t go back in time and undo that decision nor can I live the rest of my life with regret. If I hadn’t have gone though that experience I wouldn’t be writing this blog. Instead it has given me a new perspective on life. My hopes and dreams didn’t end when I left, they changed and that’s okay.
Life is a perfect imperfection, full of beginnings and endings. We are all on our own path of recovery and healing, in some way or another. We will all experience setbacks and things will come to an end. But this isn’t the end. It is the start of our new beginning, a brighter place awaits in the horizon.
Be your own light, make your own new beginning.
Until next time