Four Season and Over 23,000 Words Later
12 months, 4 seasons, 41 posts and over 23,000 words later my blog turns one.
Looking back I can’t quite believe it’s been a year. Where have the days gone? Its strange how everything feels different, without anything really changing. Instead tiny, unnoticeable differences accumulate in to something bigger without even realising.
I had thought about starting this blog for several months before and kept putting it off. This was a big step for me. I find it difficult to let people in. I prefer to be a wallflower and would rather watch the world float by than join in. And suddenly I was about to put myself on show, in full view which was a daunting prospect. A part of me doubted if it would be worth it.
And a year later, I can honestly say it has been worth it.
There have been many times on this journey where I have wanted to pack it all in. Erase this corner from the internet as though it never existed, unwrite all the words I have spoken. But I didn’t.
I stuck at it. I kept going and I’m proud of this place I have created. That’s not to say that I won’t ever feel like that again, there’s bound to be ups and downs. Nothing is ever plain sailing. But the positives definitely outweigh the bad.
When I started out on this journey I wanted to create a place where I could talk about the difficulties things and my internal struggles. I wanted a place where we could feel safe and less alone in what sometimes feels like an isolating world. It’s been a long path and I hope I’m starting to achieve this. I know I still have a long way to go but I’m getting there. I’m slowly allowing my vulnerable side to show.
I’m grateful to have this place where I know I’m not alone. It has given me hope and finally allowed my voice be to heard.
But this place would be nothing without your support and it is very much appreciated. Whether you have followed from the beginning or only recently found your way, you are all welcome here and I hope you decide to stick around. Your support means the world.
If this journey has taught me anything, it’s that we will be okay. We may not always feel comfortable in our own skin or be able to trust the anxiety ridden thoughts. Sometimes we may feel lost and broken. But I know that we will be okay. Because I know that what ever difficulties we face, we have each other and we will come through the other side. Together we can achieve anything.
And this is only the beginning.
Until next time