An Open Letter to my Younger Self
Dear eleven year old me,
It only feels like yesterday that I was stood in your shoes. Starting out on a new adventure, a whole host of new and exciting opportunities. I know you’re scared about what the future holds, the unknown can be a very daunting place. But please try not to fear. Fear gets you no where expect from hiding from your own shadow.
Leaving your old friends and the world you currently know will be difficult. I can assure you though, you will make new friends and they will be a huge part of your life for years to come. Some you will stay in contact with and others you will loose touch with. But this doesn’t make them any less important, sometimes people grow apart through no fault of their own. Friendship isn’t measured on how long you’ve know a person, it’s measured on how they touch your soul. Something I have learnt in recent years.
Continue to work hard at school and you will be rewarded. Sometimes it will feel like an uphill battle but persevere. However try not to let it take over your life. I know why you’ve thrown yourself in to school and I know education is important but it’s not more important than your social life and health. Take care of yourself and don’t be scared to let your voice be heard. What you have to say is just as valid as anyone else. Maybe if I’d have learnt this before, it would be easier now.
You will make mistakes, you will change your mind (about quite a lot of things in fact) and at times you will have to make difficult decisions. But that’s okay. That’s how you learn and grow. Just because dreams change, it doesn’t mean you have failed. You are just closer to finding your true path in life. Trust yourself more, after all no on else knows you better than you know yourself. Even though it won’t feel like it at times and you will feel like you’re lost, trust your heart (especially when your mind tries to undermine you). Believe the advice that you give.
People often say the older you get, the wiser you become. Something we don’t realise day to day, that is until we look back at our lives.
Take it from me, the older version of you, not everything makes sense or has an easy answer. There are many things you don’t understand, there are many I still don’t understand and will probably never understand but that’s okay. Just don’t let it eat you up from the inside. Don’t waste your time on things that make you unhappy, instead fill it with joy.
I could lie to you and tell you that your happily ever after is just around the corner but that wouldn’t be fair to you. Life doesn’t work like that. There will be times when everything becomes too much, you just need to stay strong and keep fighting. You will enjoy many happy times and make memories to treasure which will be your stars on the darkest nights. I’m not sure how long this battle will last but if my journey so far has taught me anything, it’s that you are stronger than you think. I know it will be worth it in the end. We are in this together
Your faithful friend
You, just ten years older