A light in the fog
I hope you have all had a lovely bank holiday weekend! Before I start todays post I want to make a couple of announcements. As of this week I have decided to post every Friday. I didn’t quite realise how long two weeks between each post would feel and at the moment I have lots of ideas about things I want to write about (but we will see how it goes). I have also added more poems to ‘My poems’ page so feel free to check them out. Anyway enough of me rambling on, let’s get started on this week’s post.
There comes a time in all of our lives when we will all make decisions and choices that will affect our future. Becoming an adult is inevitable and unavoidable. Maybe you’re about to embark on a new path or maybe you’re already following the path you have chosen. It doesn’t matter how far you are on your journey, the future can be daunting. It can feel as though you are walking through a fog not knowing what lays ahead. This can feel very isolating. But in truth, no one knows what the future holds.
I have friends that are graduating this year, some are still studying at University, and some have taken apprenticeships and are now working. We have all taken different paths. About a week or so ago I met up with a few of my friends that I hadn’t seen in a while. We were all talking about what we had planned for the future. But the more we talked, the more we all realised that none of us knew what we wanted to do in the future. I’m not saying that I wanted my friends to be in this predicament but it was a relief knowing that I’m not alone in this fog. It felt like someone had turned a light on and I could see familiar faces in the fog that surrounds me. I started to realise that I’m not a failure for not having my whole life planned out or for making mistakes. If anything this makes us human.
For the majority of my schooling years I wanted to teach. I took an extra year at sixth form to study A level maths and further maths with the intentions of going to University and becoming a teacher. I studied for a year at University and left the course early (a story for another day). And now, well if I’m being honest, I don’t really know where I am in my life. Some days I wake up feeling really ambitious like all my hopes and dreams are achievable. Other days I fear that they have been bottled up and thrown out to sea, never to be seen again. Life can be cruel like that but I think that this fear is born from not knowing what the future holds. The fog, that is our future, obscures our perception on where we are currently at in our lives. It prevents us from seeing all that we have achieved. Instead it focuses our mind on goals which we haven’t yet achieved and mistakes we have made which we perceive as failures. But this isn’t true.
The point I’m trying to make is that our lives don’t always turn out the way we expect them to. Our lives aren’t mapped out for us to see with directions pointing us the right way. We have to make our own decisions and our own mistakes. But these mistakes and decisions don’t have to define the rest of our lives. They don’t have to kill our hopes and dreams. Our hearts will lead us out of the fog, like a light on a dark night. Sometimes, like mine, it leads us down a different path, one that we never thought we would take. This can be scary, especially when you don’t know if you are making the right decision. However we need to embrace it. We need to take each opportunity that comes our way and pursue what our hearts desire. This might not be something we do for the rest of our lives but it’s a start. I know this is easier to say than do but if we don’t then the sands of time will continue to flow and we will be left behind. It’s okay to take a step back every now and again to allow ourselves to think and our thoughts to become clear. Sometimes it’s important to stop and think so we can focus on ourselves and what we currently need in our lives. We just have to make sure we regain focus so we can keep moving forwards.
We may also find that the path we choose doesn’t work out but that doesn’t mean that we have failed. We just have to learn from our experiences and use it to shape our future. Everyone’s journey through life is different and we need to support each other through it. As long as we keep making progress, keep moving forward and keep fighting for what we desire, regardless of the pace, we will make it. I believe in you.
Until next time
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