The beginning of a new chapter
If you’re reading this then you have found your way to my blog. So here goes, my first post. My name is Karlena, a twenty-something girl with a big heart. After lots of deliberation I have finally decided to write a blog. If anyone reading this knows me then they will understand that this is a huge thing for me. I’m not the kind of person who wears their heart on their sleeve for everyone to see. I don’t open up to a lot of people so I’m quite apprehensive but also excited to see where this takes us. I have never blogged before so please be patient with me, I’m sure I’ll make mistakes.
I contemplated whether or not to write anonymously. I’m nervous about how people will respond to this but I realised that if I really want this to work then I need to be honest. I don’t want you thinking that I am being hypocritical or deceitful.
After experiencing some of the darkest places in my mind, a loneliness that’s hard to describe, I have decided to reach out to you through my own experiences by talking about the difficult things. Hopefully through this journey we learn more about each other and ourselves. I want you to read what I write and understand that you are not alone in what you are experiencing. Everyone has their own demons and insecurities that they face, even if they don’t show it. You might not directly relate to everything I write, but the chances are you will know someone who will. Just because someone smiles and says ‘they’re fine’ doesn’t mean they are telling the truth. Hopefully you will be able to take comfort in my words or help you understand more about your own feelings (or even someone you care about), even if you are the only person who reads it.
We often find the difficult things in life hard to talk about. But maybe that’s what’s holding us back from moving forward. Emotions and feelings are hard to talk about because when we do we have to let other people inside our heads, our personal space. That’s difficult and makes us feel very vulnerable. But maybe if we start talking about our deepest and darkest emotions we can help each other and realise that we are not alone. That’s why I want to create this place, to talk, to reach out to people and help each other through this journey.
My blog won’t be all doom and gloom. Although I will be writing about my own anxieties and insecurities, I want to show you that behind the grey clouds there is a sun. It may be hiding for the time being but it will emerge again. I want to create a place where you feel safe, a community of meaningful understanding and unity. A place where I can share my creations whether that be poems, drawings, photos or me just writing.
Writing is an outlet for me something that I would like to do here with you. Personally I think the best way of finding purpose is to create, in any form. It doesn’t have to be a masterpiece or having meaning to anyone else, it has meaning to you and that is all that matters.
Thank you for listening to what I have to say and being a part of what I’m trying to create here. It means the world to me and helps to defeat the disapproving voices in my mind. I’m looking forward to sharing this journey with you and seeing where it takes us. Here’s to the beginning of our new chapter…
Until next time
I’d love to hear what you’ve got to say in the comments